Wednesday, January 30, 2013

Quadruple

So I haven't talked to my dad in about 3 1/2 years now.

I could tell you some fascinating stories about why this is. Stories that teeter on the point of entertainment.

The point for today is:

I was informed by my mother that my father will be having quadruple bypass heart surgery tomorrow.

God.

What am I supposed to do with THAT?

I don't need anyone to tell me that now is the time to make peace with my dad. My choice is/was not an issue of forgiveness nor is it a form of punishment I'm inflicting upon my dad.

My parents, I think, feel differently.

All that aside, this certainly makes me think. Think thoughts that I don't have time for. I don't have the emotional energy for these thinks.

It just makes me wanna sleep. In a cave. That's dark. With bottles of wine.

My dad.




4 comments:

  1. How about if *I* pray for your dad...? Would that help at all?

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  2. My dad passed away when I was 16. I wish everyday I could tell him I love him. Don't let petty things get in your way. There are some circumstances where I don't think people should have a relationship with their parents. If its not some something bad, then I encourage you to make amends.

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  3. the only thing worse than losing a parent you love, is losing a parent you're mad at.

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  4. Sorry to hear about Ken. :-( I know it's complicated and you'll do what you need to do. Xoxo

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